When boredom strikes i get lost, i knw its the time to find myself.. but i m wierd!! so this time i went from the demeaning writings to the affirmations, frm the realizations to the nothings... and as m still not out of this phase, so i thought, i shall give you a glimpse of all of these as i have nothing more than that.. but i shall remove the particulars of course, coz thats me! :p
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Its vacation time, actually its been vacation time for long.. you, no actually me, myself expect me to express, to write, to create... as there is time, energy and space.. yet all I am left with is emptiness. I thought I could do better in peace with nothing else to do, so much concentration so much to focus on.. But one little thing i forgot, no inspiration.. back then a conversation inspierd me, back then the overload of work inspierd me, hence in the middle of so much to do i could express so much more. Now I find no inspiration, no muse, nothing to do nothing to think, too much is still too less, may be the too long has got over me. I read what you write, it inspieres me at start but by the end of it i am lost again, lost in your praises detaining myself more than using thee as an inspiration. so now I wonder if I will find you again, my muse, my inspiration or may be just me! I wonder if I can!!!............................................................................................................................
They say practice what you preach but i don’t read nethin then how can i write? but then again i dont read them either then how can i write them?
So what now.. he said a pen is mightier than a sword.. but thats when you have somthing to say what if u have nthin to say what then?
He said imagination is like a musscle if you don’t exercise it regularly it will get weak.. i truly belive that so lets imagine.. so what to imagine even when you imagine something, at the end of it you should have something to say, but then like you do, its not nessecarry you know that something right away.. it might come to you as you go on.
You want it to be mature, at the same time you want awl, to enjoy it. You want it to be fresh and new yet classic and ever readable so what do you do ? how do you start? I don’t know, bt hope it comes, no no no hope, it will come to me.. infact it is coming to me.. thats what an affirmation is isn't it?
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more so.. when boredom strikes, so do the thoughts..
I thought it was just me,
But then I saw you,
And Then I saw the others too,
Now I don’t know whether to be happy or to be sad,
to see the bright side or just wallow in bad,
Happy to see that I am not alone,
Or sad to realize that I am not the only one,
Happy to know that I am not a freak,
Or sad to realize that I might prefer to be one,
Happy to find out your beautiful words,
Or sad to realize that I am not good enough.
Yes, I thought it was just me,
But then I saw you.
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Ya so by now you would hav labeled me as a psychopath, but removing the particulars does not leave much sense to it. Dont know how much you will get, dont know how much i mean to say... but just hope it does not turn you away!!
so all thats left to say is.. happy holidays! :P
Psychd huh?
Can't help that, it's just me.. :P
Love Always
Signing off
just me
