Never thought I’d be
standing here,
Afraid to look back,
or to move forward,
Frozen here at this
point where...
Tears refuse to show, yet inside they continue
to flow.
Where I don’t know
what’s right or what’s wrong.
Where guilt and
pleasures are long gone.
Where fear is a
constant companion and hope begins to die,
Where faith is eroded
and to life you can’t look in the eye
As the sun no longer
shows his shinning ray,
All I can do is, let
the rain wash it all away.
I guess I grew up, or
maybe it’s the opposite,
Coz...
If it was beautiful
then why am I ashamed?
If it was wrong then
why did I not stop?
If it was real then
why do I dream about it?
If it was false why do I still face the repurcations?
If it is what I asked
for why am I not happy?
If it was just a
phase why can’t I still live with it?
If it’s over then why
do I think about it?
If it’s not then why
am I upset about it?
Questions remained unanswered,
And life continues to
complicate...
As the sun no longer
shows his shinning ray,
All I can do is, let
the rain wash it all away.
This is not how I
thought it would be,
This is not how life
was suppose to unfold,
I thought I was
beyond it, I thought I was sane,
And now I look back
to see I was the worst of all.
I choose this myself,
I don’t know how,
You can’t amend what’s
done so I live with it now.
Time they say heals it
all, so wounds and bruises may go away,
But to remind me the
lessons learned I know the scars are here to stay.
As the sun no longer
shows his shinning ray,
All I can do is, let
the rain wash it all away.
Love Always
Signing off
just me
